Dreams

   Dreams are one of the few gifts left on earth that havent been some how ruined by ppl ... they are the ultimate escape from whatever your cross to bear is. They are whatever you want them to be. You are the master of your Dreams ! You control the story and only you can change what happens.

   The sad reality of it though is when fear, or sadness, or pain, or anything of that sort gain the upper hand in your life (or at least your thoughts) you tend to have what we call ... Nightmares ... Now nightmares come in all shapes an sizes and some how always hit you where it hurts the most. They could be as simple as you being chased by clown or so intense that your in a small squad trying to survive against an oncoming invasion of alien troops who want nothing more then to capture you and torture you for the rest of your days ...

   They can even be ones of false hope ... ones that make you believe that the impossible is possible (to some that only is a nightmare for there drive to be more had died along with their spirit) and they can become what hey have "dreamed" of .... Others are repeating memories that you try so hard to forget but resurface when your defenses are down. You never really know when your nightmares will replace your dreams (an while you may have an idea) you never do know ...

   My dreams an nightmares usually come as a pair ... I cant have one without the other coming the next night. Then I usually dont dream about anything for a goood while. I still dont know whats worse, Not having any dreams or only having nightmares (with the once and a while good dream) ... ahhhh idk why it gets so bad during some streches of nights when I do dream ... For the past two weeks I done alot of dreaming (so much its almost overwhelming ... i cant remember the last time ive dreamt like this) and I dont know whether the my dreams have been good or not Idk how to take them ... It brings feelings I thought I was done with (at least for a while) and sometimes they are so confusing Im literely up some nights just trying to understand what they meant exactly ... Its so frustrating I actaully lose sleep over thinking about them !!!

   First my problem was I didnt dream ... Now I have dreams coming out of my ass but most of them I cant understand ... Then those I can understand are drving me mad !!! I guess I should be grateful I got what I asked for ... guess its true what they say "be careful what you wish for, you just mite get it" haha oh how I love irony even if its aimed towards me ...

  So here I am almost 4 am and im writing about dreams ... Maybe im scared of what Ill find when I fall under the sand mans curse ... Hmm any ideas as to why My dreams are so FUCKING insane ? ... No didnt think so ... ahhhhhhhhhhhh er um hm um auh ....

   Dreams are amazing if given the chance to grow ... they are like children ... give them love, give them care, always make sure to play with them, tell them you love them, and they can be everything you want them to be. With the help of someone they can even surprise you ... just depends on how well you take care of them and how well you take care urself ...

  I will finish this post with this thought ... Everyone at one point or another has a dream about something ... Why not try to do at least one thing that makes that dream possible ... Just one thing is all I ask