Great news

On a happier note no little ppl in my dreams last night !! haha i win this round stupid lil ppl XD

So lik um ha ... Hmm no name today ...

so right now my head is spining and my heart is ponding ... Could be cuz the tea I took on top of this insane sleeping pattern I hav or just wats going on with my life ... My mom is sick she has M.S. And over the years it has taken a toll on her an gets worse everyday ... She may not seem to sick some days or even ok others but I'm not stupid I kno wats happening and it truly scares me ... So much can happen to her (and I kno I shouldn't be scared or I shouldt worry to much but god damn it's alot to tak in sometimes) I mean imagine watching your mother die slowly infront of you and their be nothing and i mean nothing you can do about it ... some times ill stay up with her just to mak sure if she needs something ill be there for her ... maybe i worry to much an i let this overwhelm me ... maybe ... then my whole one thing is lik ahhhh wat do u do ?! i forgot to listen again and now im lik crap should i or shouldnt i ? hmm no true harm can come of it if its just a beginning i see but then idk ... i hav much white hairs haha an i think i kno why but i could be wrong XD .... i was really angry last night an to tell you all the truth i hav no sane reason why it was freaky ... i hate being angry or mad it takes so much out of me an lately ive hadnt had much to give some times im so worn out ... (i swear once i post this im out lik a light ... but lik i havent said that b4 lol) ... then on top of everything its back (even if its for a bit it is an im lik omg please just leave me alone kinda thingish if that makes sense) but to my great fortune (ya haha i made a funny) its not as world upside thingy any more which makes me happy becuz i kno ima be ok an still be strong XD ... on a side note i love that song 'i want to be a billionare' its so my jam i swear hahaha ... ok back to serious buisness ... hmm i think its to late for that (it would proly just be plane weird but at the same time it mite seem to late after this hmmm) ... why cant life come with a guide lik video games i swear it would be so much easier ... i wish lol ... in three minutes ill decide no wait forget the time limit i think it would give it away and thats just not cool .... here soon tppl r going to see me and be lik wow didnt he hav black hair not whit ? why did he dye it when in all truth i just worried myself to white hair lol (of ourse it would still look amazing XD just white not black but when i think about it now it mite not be that bad having white hair haha spike it up an look alll awesome lik hahaha) ... srry its late an im just going every where with this ... any who im stull kinda lost in somethings and i hope god or watever is up there gives me a sign so i kno wat in hell fury do i hav to do or wat should i do or even a flippin clue as to wat mite happen if i do this or this ... that would just be to easy for me huh big guy just to damn easy ...ahhhhhhhhhh idk idk idk .... i.d.k. ill finish with a quote from a movie i cant wait to see ...


Its so fluffy !!!!!!!! hahahahaha lol cant wait to see it ...

Its so annoying to wait !!!

all these stupid farm games on facebook hav such long an annoying wait time for anything to happen !!!! its lik a two hour wait (or more i swear) for anything good an while i love the challenge of starting out with nothing an building something amazing (i mean my main games are RPGs) its just so annoying and then they hav lik stupid elevator music playing and im lik wtf ?!?!?! they couldnt of picked any better music for this overly addicting game that i cant stop playing anymore ?!??!?! i swear some times companies do this jsut to piss me off !! yah thats right not you or ur parents but just me !!! ahh im so raging an AHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ... alright i feel a little better now .... seriously not really its so STUPID !!! man how i hate to wait !!!! im so gunna play that unicorn game on adultswim now ... no waiting on that and its the most manly game ever created lol

Poem: Broken Hero

From out of the sky comes down crashing the hero of heroes, The man of Steel, Superman.

He hits the ground and is only able to get to his knees.

With all the world going to hell Superman finds that he has lost.

He gave up, his will to protect was broken.

A little girl and her mother witnessed his defeat and horrible crash back down to earth.

"Mommy what's wrong with Superman!? Why isn't he getting back up?!" yells the little girl.

"Honey some times people can only take so much punishment untill the break. I believe Superman has found his breaking point and god help us all now that he has." Her mother barley breathes out.

"But mommy he's Superman! He is supposed make sure we are all safe! How can he just give up?!" the little girl tells her mother

"Baby there's nothing we can do. We need to get out of here now!" The mother explains to her daughter.

"Mommy! Mommy! I can help Superman!" yells the girl.

"Stop being silly! What could you possible do little one he is broken?" askes the mother through tears and confused.

"Mommy you once told me that my smile could fix anything! So im going to fix Superman with my smile!" anwsers the girl.

"You cant really ... I didnt mean ... It was just something to ... hey you get back here little missy right now! It to dangerous!" yells out her mother.

She was to late the little girl had already reached Superman and the mother had to hide for the monster had almost reached them.

When the little girl gets to Superman she stares at him hoping to find some trace of her hero.

All she finds is an empty shell of the man she once believed could not beaten.

She didnt know she was crying untill she saw her tears fall onto her broken hero.

She had almost lost all hope as she stood there in shock (imagine standing over your hero ... not the greatest moment of her life).
"Superman why aren't you getting up and fighting the bad men? You are supposed to save everyone! You are supposed to keep mommy safe you promised! You are supposed to make sure I am save .. please get up ... please I'm so scared ... I don't want to die." The little girl says.

"I'm sorry little one but I can't win ... not this time ... I am so sorry." Is all Superman can tell the girl.

"My mommy said that you are broken and she also told me that i could fix the world with my smile if i needed too and I believe i can fix you Superman so please lift your head and look at me... please look up!" The little girl begs at Superman.

"Little one ... if this is what it takes for you too run for safety I'll see your smile" Superman reluctenly answers.

He finaly lifts his head to stare at the child.

Then the girl looks into eyes for the first time and the sight shakes his very soul.

He couldn't believe how a little girl could have such a powerful stare full of care, hope, and utter belief in him.

Then she gave him a smile only a child can give.

One of true life, love, and innocence.

One that could melt the heart of any man or woman, good or bad.

Then she gave him a hug and whispered into his ear, "Superman I'm npt scared anymore I believe you can save me ... I will never give up hope on you ... even if they take me away and kill me right now ... you will still be my Hero, the one I can always count on, the one who who will always be true, the one who will always protect me."

The end ...

Of part one ...

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Sigh

Here I am awake this late at night wondering what's going on with me ... I'm so tired yet I find no sleep... It makes it so hard to go on an get out of bed every day an smile an be happy ... Yet I'm strong enough to get out of bed an smile an be happy but it's getting harder everyday and for the life of me I don't kno why !? ... I'm lucky to hav friends that love me and are there for me when I need them but god damn I'm so tired like it's effecting how I feel .... Hmmm I'll get a hold on this sleeping thing but I hope it's soon cuz I don't kno how much I can go without sleep ahhhhhhh .... Well hopefully getting it all down on this blog will help I mean that's wat this kind of things are here for right ! ... Well I'm odd to a sleepless night an a full day ...