Sigh

Here I am awake this late at night wondering what's going on with me ... I'm so tired yet I find no sleep... It makes it so hard to go on an get out of bed every day an smile an be happy ... Yet I'm strong enough to get out of bed an smile an be happy but it's getting harder everyday and for the life of me I don't kno why !? ... I'm lucky to hav friends that love me and are there for me when I need them but god damn I'm so tired like it's effecting how I feel .... Hmmm I'll get a hold on this sleeping thing but I hope it's soon cuz I don't kno how much I can go without sleep ahhhhhhh .... Well hopefully getting it all down on this blog will help I mean that's wat this kind of things are here for right ! ... Well I'm odd to a sleepless night an a full day ...