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This guy right here is 19 years old. I have much to say and honestly it might be to much. I do what I can with what I am given and I try to live life the best way anyone can, no regrets and many adventures

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Who is me ... Why am I me ... What does me do

   The past couple of days I have been emotionaly bombarded by life. i feel as if my journey to find myself has became something more then even i could of possible imagined. i believe finding who i am was only part of this new journey and now that Robert Haro is finally here its time to find out why i feel empty inside. I have lately been able to be there for friends of mine and that helps shake the feeling of emptiness but at the end of the day its like i am missing something. Its like no matter what I do or no matter how much I get done its never enough to completely feel like i have accomplished something.

   I try to do what I can to help ppl. I find that its the best thing i can do to make something of myself in this world, hell in my life. I think i do an alright job i mean just a couple of last nights ago i went to my best friends house at 1:00 oclock in the morning just b/c i thought he needed someone to talk to. Yet day after day I all ways feel like "is it enough? Am I worth anything?" ...

   You ever wake up one morning and just feel like no matter what happens you will be on top ? You ever wake up one morning and feel as if no matter what you do everything will work out for you ? You ever wake up one day and just feel lik you can take on the whole world and then some ?
  
   You ever wake up one morning and feel as if the moment you step out of bed life is going to find every single way to ruin you ? You ever wake up and feel like a Superhero an by the end of the day reality sets in and you fall out of the sky ? You ever wake up one morning and just know it wont be your day ?

   So much of your day rides on how you feel in the morning. If you choose to have a positive mind set then you are already one step the right direction for the rest of your day. You can only control so much that happens in life (that is certainly true) but the one big thing you can control is how you react to what happens day to day. Do you let it get to you to the point where you can't fuction or do you press forward and live life? So many choices but the ball is always in your court!

   Days like this remind me of how awesome I am. It mite sound concedied to some but if I dont tell myself how amazing I am who will ? I was with family today out in gunlock (I believe that is in Utah but not sure lol) today and repeated I was told how such a great young man I have turned out to be and that with being the oldest of my generation (in my family of course) a lot of pressure rides on my shoulders but that they wouldnt have had it any other way. The love me very much and sometimes I forget that but being reminded helps me get passed the feeling of failure I sometimes have.

   My mother with one convo. has made me a better man. What she told me devastated me and completely changed not only the way I see her but women in general. The I see women as these flowers that need to be taken care of (not saying that they cant do it by them selfs b/c they can). What I mean by that is being a gentleman is a lost art it seems and very few men treat women the way they are meant to be treated. Its a sad day in my life when men treat women wrongly ! It is truly a crime of the worst kind ! ... Now though the view has been inhanced incrediblely ! Mom if you ever read this know that I truly love you so much and I hope I can be a man, a son, a brother, father, a partner, a person you can be proud of ! I know you tell me that all the time but I truly hope Im doing right by you :)

    Who is me ... Robert Haro aka Superman ... Why am I me ... I choose to be who I am because I live life the best way I can always making sure I csan make as difference wether it be with my life or someone elses ... What does me do ... Be the best version of me! Life is easier when you have good family and friends and I try my best to be a good family member as well as a good friend ...

   I. Choose. To. Be. More.

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