So lik um ha ... Hmm no name today ...

so right now my head is spining and my heart is ponding ... Could be cuz the tea I took on top of this insane sleeping pattern I hav or just wats going on with my life ... My mom is sick she has M.S. And over the years it has taken a toll on her an gets worse everyday ... She may not seem to sick some days or even ok others but I'm not stupid I kno wats happening and it truly scares me ... So much can happen to her (and I kno I shouldn't be scared or I shouldt worry to much but god damn it's alot to tak in sometimes) I mean imagine watching your mother die slowly infront of you and their be nothing and i mean nothing you can do about it ... some times ill stay up with her just to mak sure if she needs something ill be there for her ... maybe i worry to much an i let this overwhelm me ... maybe ... then my whole one thing is lik ahhhh wat do u do ?! i forgot to listen again and now im lik crap should i or shouldnt i ? hmm no true harm can come of it if its just a beginning i see but then idk ... i hav much white hairs haha an i think i kno why but i could be wrong XD .... i was really angry last night an to tell you all the truth i hav no sane reason why it was freaky ... i hate being angry or mad it takes so much out of me an lately ive hadnt had much to give some times im so worn out ... (i swear once i post this im out lik a light ... but lik i havent said that b4 lol) ... then on top of everything its back (even if its for a bit it is an im lik omg please just leave me alone kinda thingish if that makes sense) but to my great fortune (ya haha i made a funny) its not as world upside thingy any more which makes me happy becuz i kno ima be ok an still be strong XD ... on a side note i love that song 'i want to be a billionare' its so my jam i swear hahaha ... ok back to serious buisness ... hmm i think its to late for that (it would proly just be plane weird but at the same time it mite seem to late after this hmmm) ... why cant life come with a guide lik video games i swear it would be so much easier ... i wish lol ... in three minutes ill decide no wait forget the time limit i think it would give it away and thats just not cool .... here soon tppl r going to see me and be lik wow didnt he hav black hair not whit ? why did he dye it when in all truth i just worried myself to white hair lol (of ourse it would still look amazing XD just white not black but when i think about it now it mite not be that bad having white hair haha spike it up an look alll awesome lik hahaha) ... srry its late an im just going every where with this ... any who im stull kinda lost in somethings and i hope god or watever is up there gives me a sign so i kno wat in hell fury do i hav to do or wat should i do or even a flippin clue as to wat mite happen if i do this or this ... that would just be to easy for me huh big guy just to damn easy ...ahhhhhhhhhh idk idk idk .... i.d.k. ill finish with a quote from a movie i cant wait to see ...


Its so fluffy !!!!!!!! hahahahaha lol cant wait to see it ...